Snap out of it.

I’ve not really felt like I’ve been my best self lately. I’m not happy about or proud of this.

For the past couple of weeks, I’ve been angry and irritated and impatient and intolerant and sarcastic and potty-mouthed  and snarky and frustrated and tearful and pretty negative all round. I’ve been withdrawn and I’ve bailed on team sporting commitments. I’ve been tired all the time, and I’ve not been making good food choices.

Work has been unpredictable and stressful for some time, and all the change and uncertainty has left me feeling anxious and generally uneasy – but this is really no excuse. This is just not me.

I’ve been a real wet blanket. don’t even want to be around me lately, so I don’t know how others have tolerated me.

Ordinarily, I am a pretty cheerful person; even when things are tough I can usually manage to slap a smile on my face and muster a little enthusiasm. Lately, I’ve barely tried. I know I certainly can’t be upbeat all the time, however I do think there is something to be said for always doing your best. While one’s “best” is of course bound to change depending on how one is feeling in that moment, even stressed and tired, I know I could be putting in more effort.

The only thing that is certain right now is that the next few weeks will continue to be exhausting and stressful.

Life

4 Comments
  • Gary
    May 6, 2013

    Dear Miss Posy,

    I really feel for you. I hope this period in your life is momentary and you do find your way out of the morass that is life sometimes. Take care, hang in there and know you have many supporters and fans. *hugs*

    Gary

    • miss posy
      May 6, 2013

      Thanks, Gary – your kind words are much appreciated. I’ll be just fine, I always am!

  • Natalie
    May 6, 2013

    I’m sorry to hear that you’ve not been the best and hopefully the rain cloud clears for you soon.

    Similar to the quote you posted, one of my favourites is by Tolstoy: “if you want to be happy, be.” I think of it often because I believe happiness is ultimately a choice. there’s always lots of things to be sad or worried about but like you’ve said, it really comes down to you and how you choose to act. Seems silly and ridiculous sometimes when you feel the world is against you I know! But hopefully things get better soon.

    • miss posy
      May 6, 2013

      Thanks, lovely. I just need to get through the next couple of weeks and all will be okay.. I like that quote – definitely one to remember!

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